Monday, February 11, 2008

ouch. . .

So I've been examining my life around me for the past while, observing things, events, people, and such, doing so I feel a sense of replacement or out of place, I don't if these are irrational feelings or just irrational outlookings but it kind of eeks me. I don't like it, and I'm sure alot of it is me being a semi bit over dramatic. Thats what i've been told anyways. I don't know if there is really anything that i can do about it but i think that maybe i will have to just see where the chips fall and base my emotional thoughts after that. Anyways, I have things to do so I will write more later if I feel up to it.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

V-Day Realization

So yeah, for the last two years I've had that special someone to celebrate valentine's day with. This year however is a bit more lonely. Its a tad depressing, I know. I was given valentine's day off of work and i don't really know why. They know i don't have a boyfriend. They scheduled my friend Alisha from work to work 5 to close and she does have a boyfriend so I told her i'd work for her so she can have a romantic night out. Plus it will earn me a ton of money. So i hope this brings some good karma my way. I really need to date more. . .

Friday, February 1, 2008

My AA Meeting. . .

So I went to my court ordered AA meeting today to set up my evalutation. It sure was an interesting thing to go to. There were so many people there like at least a hundred or so i'm guessing. We went off into rooms so that we could talk in groups and such. Hearing how people's live have been so negatively affected by Alcohol and Drugs, makes me never want to drink or do drugs. I already know i won't do drugs because of all the people in my life that have told me to stay away from them. But seeing people who's live have been destroyed by their addictions really puts things into light for me. I can't imagine losing a child or my car or home and being forced to live in the streets, like alot of the people who are so heavily addicted do. I really want to take what I learned from that meeting and help the people in my life to avoid making those same mistakes. I have to get my evaluation done sometime within the next 2 weeks by order of the court so hopefully they can schedule me before then or else i'll have to call them and such. ughhh. So yeah thats my lesson for today.

Damn Court!

so yeah, its 3am and I have to wake up in the morning to go to a group thing and set up an evaluation. ugh, how lame, but I have to do it. I have to go in at 11am and i don't even know exactly where it is or why I can't just schedule the eval. but whatever. I have work at five so i hope that i will have some sort of free time in between to go do something. :D